i'm so unsure .
i wasnt angry with you .
i was angry at myself .
gosh .
freak it .
sorry okay ?
sorry i got you into this situation .
you can just back out if you want .
god .
just dont be such a prick .
people have feelings too you know .
and i'm still capable of thinking .
geez .
shit . i just ruined my mood .
and shit . i'll probably just ruin everyone's mood .
my head really hurts . i just want to cry . god .
what's wrong with me .
i always expected this to happen .
i just couldnt help it .
oh my god .
what kind of friend am i .
shit . shit . shit .
i'm so sorry . i really cant put this into words .
no , you wouldnt understand .
i really dont think you would .
and fine , i dont understand you either .
SOMEONE PLEASE . SAVE ME FROM MYSELF .built up and then crushed down again .
that must've been what was so emotionally gripping about it .
maybe one day you'll see me turn into a pyromaniac like in that book .
god . i cant take this .
i'll just .. let it all out .
can someone talk to me ?
someone that'll understand me without judging me ?
i really wanted just you to do exactly that .
but you dont seem to be able to .
why am i acting like a downright bitch ?
god . i have no idea .
so sue me for being a bitch .
anything wrong with that ?
maybe you should try going through what i'm going through .
you'll feel the pain .
and i wonder how long it'll take before you snap too .
it's just too much .
its pouring now .
and it wont stop .
